All-Fall-Apart

Before I had meet you I never realized your impact                 I though finding you would be best. But, all I found was that I had no idea About what was gone wrong                                           But I started to be treated differently. I learned there was more As if it was necessary                                             That I changed the way I looked at my life I learne

Just like a storm All hell's going to break loose The lightning will strike Sending the air particles apart The lightening will retract and the Two sides will crash together The load boom will serve As a warning of what's to come It will approach with a gaining velocity Getting louder as the wind picks up Soon the hot and cold air Will swirl chasing one another They will touch the ground Wreaking havoc everywhere they go It will then lift and the clouds Will part for everyone to see Nothing survived and the hope Was drained from those left behind

I stare at the blank page before me The blue lines blurring as everything is out of focus My hand moves, but nothing is drawn The spirit flies away as I can not draw even a fawn I tear the page out away from my eyes The paper falling slowly to the ground beside me My body shakes as I fail to find my way The pencil wants to fall and rest for another day I pause looking for inspiration for a simple mind The computer goes dark as the life drained out My neck is stiff from a wasted hour The faith is crumbling like an old tower I blink and see the lines across the page The white paper filing slowly with words My head gears are grinding for a rh

Why do you think I am this way? Maybe because You are a Hypocrite and You don't see it Why do you think I don't love you? Maybe because You don't give Me the Opportunity To show you Why do you think I don't tell you anything? Maybe because You over react all The time, telling me What I already know Why do you think I tell you over and over? Maybe because You don't understand Modern society enough To live in it Why do you think I imagine a perfect world Maybe because I would still be mad If you wouldn't Let me Why do you think I'm insulted? Maybe because You would just hear More hurtful words If I were to stay. Why do you think I

Maybe they found someone else Someone who is better then me I know there are Maybe they don't notice me anymore They don't like me anymore I guess I'm now alone Maybe they can't see the pain I feel When another person replaces me I wonder if my life is meant to be in pain Maybe they have moved on Never to find me again I sometimes find it hard Maybe they know that they are leaving The feeling has been made prominent I can't even find myself anymore

I can't keep myself together Just want to curl up In a ball and cry for days Can this just be A nightmare to wake up from And everything will be normal? I hate how things can change so fast Never expected things to happen like this I just can't understand Everyone is saying that They love you and they are there But I feel empty When I'm not crying I Don't know what I feel It seems that I feel nothing But with a tear stained face With blood shot eyes and A tear soaked shirt People are depending on me As an older person to put on The facade pretending to be okay I force a smile And pray while saying "It will be okay"